There have been a couple of songs that have been speaking to me. One goes "I am not skilled to understand, what God has willed, what God has planned" and I heard a new one by Steven Curtis Chapman today"God is God and I am not, I can only see a part of the picture He's painting, God is God and I am man, So I'll never understand it all" And on the radio they were talking about Steven's daughter who was killed in a tragic accident. And she asked for other stories where God had given peace to others. She gave the bible verse "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid" John 14:27
God has given me lots of peace in the last two years. With a divorce, being diagnosed with an auto immune, and change of jobs. And just coping with a preschooler on my own has required a lot. And God has more than come through for me. Sometimes I am overwhelmed to tears on how much he has provided for me. Laura, our pastor's wife, talked about the story of Noah on Thursday night and she quoted the verse "God remembered Noah" and the know that God has remembered me is an amazing feeling.
My newest peace from God came this week actually. I've had a stomach ache for about 2 weeks now. The pain was so bad I finally went to the doctor. I found out on Thursday I am going to have to have a colonoscopy so they can make sure its not an ulcer. And amazingly enough I didn't cry. I'm a little nervous, but God has given me a peace, and has prepared me. Laura blogged about her colonoscopy only a week or two ago!! So I know what to expect. The first thing out of my best friends mouth was: Let me know what day it is so I can take you. And I have even encouraged another friend to get hers done (she has family history of colon cancer). So even though its not going to be fun, its going to be okay. And strangely enough my ex (by the grace of God, we are getting along). Said he would help out or bring me anything if I needed it. So who knew a very private and just gross procedure could make a simple girl feel so loved. I know, this stuff only happens to me. But that is what makes me--me!!
So no matter what I know God has an amazing plan for me. As He does for you. So no matter what is happening in your life, maybe its for a bigger plan of more happiness for you. And just remind yourself, at least I don't have to have a colonoscopy!!